Yes it's only 11:22 but I am usually asleep an hour before this. I'm not sure why I'm still awake, but my feet are freezing! I don't like socks. I like the look of socks, but I don't like wearing them.
While I was pondering on socks earlier today, that is not what has been occupying most of my thoughts. This is: Earlier today I was texting with a friend from the mission and he mentioned how he hated getting on Facebook because everyone was getting engaged. Can I just tell you how amazing it was to hear someone else, and a guy at that, say those words? (Alright he only typed them, but roll with me) There is something so exciting and devastating about an engagement. Every time a close friend has gotten engaged I was so happy for them, but I also cried. Every time. Just like how I cry every time I see a Broadway show. Why is that? I think maybe part of it is because it is a replacement of sorts. No one likes to be replaced, no matter how handsome or fun the replacement. Also, I believe we know that it will never be completely the same again. There is something bigger than friendship in life and that is love and friendship. I'm not bitter about these facts, just pensive. I have good friends who are married and we hang out like old times. I love that. I love their husbands. Together we have a lot of fun.
I like looking at character traits and breaking them down. This is one of those. I've decided it's a stumble because I should be able to be purely happy for people who have found their love. Holding back love and joy is a little selfish. And yet, the change of relationship status can still rock my world for a while.
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14 hours ago
But then come the babies and it makes it all better right? Because babies are soooo much cooler than friends. Babies love you, and grow up and want to play with you, and since you're not the actual parent you never have to deal with the harder side of things.
ReplyDeleteBasically I'm just trying to say that I still love you, even though I got married and had kids. And since you're my little sister you have an awesome nephew and niece to play with now!